My big journal of words and stuff journal

I'm at work!

Tue, 20 Jul 2004 14:01:27 GMT

i'm at work right now. for those of you who don't know, i got my drivers licence. YAY FOR ME!! so i got a job. i weed wack and do yard work and paint and stuff. but now i'm on a long break because everybody is in a meeting and aren't telling us what we're supposed to do. So i jumped on the computer to check email and stuff. so yeah. here i am. hoot hoot! jobs going well. work 8 hours for like... 3 days a week... kinda. it's more like whenever i want to work, i come in and work. so that's awesome. get payed on fridays! yeah... not much is going on. just wanted to tell everyone that back in june i got my licence (june 24th actually) and now, after DC, i have a job to rake in the money!!! whoot whoot!
my arm hurts... a lot!

This will look familar to Katie...

Mon, 12 Jul 2004 22:52:34 GMT

Hey! I just got back from Washington DC!!! It is so different on the east coast!! wow! It was really awesome to see all of America's history first hand. Lots of things from our History is in Washington DC. Stuff from wars (like the American Revolution and the Civil War) and stuff from really famous presidents like George Washington and Lincoln. Man... it was sooo awesome! I also went to Florida to Disney World. That was really fun too. Disney World is a really fun place to go, but I like Busch Gardens better.

Busch Gardens is another theme park, but with really scary and super fast, twisting rollercoaster!!! something way awesome about Busch Gardens is that the park is divided up into sections of the world. There is a British section with a fake "Big Ben" and they have the rollercoaster "The Lock Ness Monster." That one wasn't that fun. then moving on to "Ireland" and nothing in Ireland was exciting. then France. and in France there was the rollercoaster Alpengies. It was the craziest thing I've ever been on! it was all huge and twisted and sudden turns and loops all over the place!!! it was awesome!! Then onto Germany. Germany was cool because it was all set up for Oktoberfest, with a Festhaus that serves "traditional" German food. I ate lunch there and there were people doing dances and singing really loudly and drinking and stuff! it was cool. Germany had the rollercoaster "The Big Bad Wolf" it was cool because at one point in the coaster, you take a sudden drop into the "Rhine" river. it's cool. and lastly there is Italy which has "Apollo's Chariot" that was my favorite ride. Getting you up to 75 miles an hour. THAT'S FAST!!!

Seeing all the really old stuff was cool too. I went to the National Museum of Natural History and saw the crown and necklace Napoleon gave to his wife. I also saw the earrings that Marie Antoinette wore. I saw the Hope Diamond too! it was cool. but it is ugly. it looked fake. i was dissapointed. At that same museum I saw dinosaur bones and i touched one even though the sign said not to, and a huge exhibit on evolution of mammals. I also went to the Smithsonian museum of Art and the National Holocaust Museum. Went and saw the Nations Capital building and the White House, along with the Ford's Theatre (freaky), Mount Vernon, and a bunch of national monuments. Went to Arlington and saw the huge national cemetery for all the people killed in war... it was really moving. along with the Tomb of the Unknown Soldier. Vacation was great!! that was the first time I've ever been to Washington DC. I hope I get to go back!! I learned sooooo much about our Nations history plus had a super awesome time with friends!!! man!!!

man... i should do this more often

Thu, 27 May 2004 00:16:51 GMT

i think with the ending of school drawing nearer and nearer, this will posibly be my last update until summer. I haven't updated in so long... i should really do it more often. I think my last update was sometime in April... holy crap... getting online is sucha hassle though... crying out loud.

anyways... So... matt and i are well. english is still stupid as always and we had our last band concert of the year. so that means the band and the choir kids are just gonna goof off till the year ends. YAY!! i love the choir kids!! i cna't wait till choir next year. schweet!
Biology is going ok. we are learning about Viruses and bacteria and stuff. man... it would be kewl to be a virus. you'd be like the worlds biggest mystery. sweet. Global studies... we have some weird project thingy... way stupid. but easy. i do awesome in that class. For lunch my "group" ate in Bryan's car. fun it was. yes... better than the dumb commons. stupid commons. German quiz tomorrow. i'll study tomorrow morning. i forgot both my books at school. eff. Math is easy. but i always get so tired once i get to math class. math should never be 6th period.

One of my teachers recommended me to be a link leader. so next year i'll show new freshmen around. wow. that would be fun. I should do it. yes. Had my first NHS meeting today. they are human sacrificers. yes they are. but it'll look good to colleges.

I don't know weather i should join Forensics or West Singers. I think i can do both as long as i talk to Mrs. Williams... maybe i'll just do that. yes. because Rob was in Forensics and Jazz band... so yeah.

the jazz singers and singing and the art dillyo tomorrow. scatting is so much fun. omg!! i love it. Sonny is really good. So is Jlynn and those other people. I get to sing Don't Get Around Much Anymore as a solo... all to myself... hahahaha!!! best song... yes... it's fun for me!

I thought up a musical today. so i need to get someone good with music who can turn my story into a musical for me... that would be fun i think. yeah. and I was teaching Arnold to swing dance today. I'm such a good teacher.

I'm getting voice lesons over the summer to do believe. I just got to ask my mutter first. yeah. my brother needs the computer for homework now. so i must leave thou. for those up in btown, I MISS YOU SO MUCH!!!!!!!!! WRITE ME LETTERS!!!!!!!! LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!!!!!! and i will hopefully be able to update this again before school gets out. FRICKEN 19 DAYS!!!!!! YEAH!!!!!

i'm so happy...

Sat, 08 May 2004 20:03:02 GMT

i went to a party last night at Denny's... and i totally rock. we were all taking glasses of water like shots and seeing who can drink the fastest, and i totally kicked everybodies butt... i rock... yes!!! it was fun. i drank like... 10 glasses of water, all faster than ANYBODY else at the party... man... it was so awesome...

what can i say, nobody can down 'em faster than me!!

Going to a play tonight... and then another one tomorrow. i'm excited. you know what though? last night while trying to sleep i went to the bathroom 5 times... WOW!! called brad; he's asleep. sooner or later Les Mis will be in our local paper. the dude came last night to practice.

wow i can't type today. blah!

RUSH!!!!!!

Tue, 04 May 2004 00:15:08 GMT

got to go in like... 10 minutes and i still need to eat. so here's it all real quick!!

best weekend ever!

went to a fair with Matt and I kissed him at the top of the ferris wheel!! romantic (oooo oooooo)... how fun to think of!!

watched some movies...

got BIG FISH... ahh... i'm so uberly in love with that movie... I was in a trance the frist time I watched it... ahhh... my nervana... ahh ahhhaaaahhhhh... best movie in the world... same director as Edward Sissorhands you know.

yeah... i have to go eat. then Les Mis. blah!!

WELCOME EMILY!!!!!

mueah

Mon, 26 Apr 2004 02:52:38 GMT

this weekend was the greatest ever. ok. so sarah stayed the night Friday to Saturday and we woke up the next morning and went swimming. then awesome dude Bryan called me up and asked if Sarah and I wanted to come to his house for a bonfire. so we did. and on the way out to his house we picked up Joe. and I'm SOOOO glad we did because without him i wouldn't have gotten the biggest laugh of my enitire life. but i'll get to that later.

i'm sad without matt. and that he couldn't come. but it was ok. he got to play tennis with his madre. so that's not so bad. ok. so we got out to awesome dude Bryan's house and we all saw bryan shirtless... hahha... he just repainted his house and on the way out there bryan's mom was telling sarah, joe and I funny/embarressing stories of Bryan. HAHAHAHAHA!!! o man... funny. so bryan was covered in paint from painting his house and we went out to his barn were there is a swing hooked up. so now for the biggest laugh i've ever had in my whole life...

so imagion if you will a barn with hay stacked up almost to the ceiling on one side and a cow trailer on the other. well the swing is attached to the wood to support the roof of the barn thing and you have to climb up the hay to get to the swing. well the swing is just one single rope attached to a small piece of wood that you sit on. when you sit on it the rope goes in between your legs and you swing in circles around the hay stack.

now that you got the visual, all tell you what happened. so Joe was showing Sarah and I how this swing worked because he's done it before and not us. so he jumps off the top hay pile and he starts to swing around in a circle. well about 1/4 the way through his circle he runs into another pile of hay because it was stacked to high. but the funnest thing is, is that the pile was the exact height of where his butt is, and the swing totally gave him a nut-check. but he gained so much speed that he like almost got torn in half. i laughed so hard and joe ended up falling backwards off the swing into the hay where he cut up his thigh, which was also so funny. omg... i laughed for about a hour strait!! omg... so funny...

we also jumped off the roof of his barn into a huge pile of sawdust. then we made a huge bonfire and dances around his chanting silly stuff. we also jumped over the fire and roasted marshmellows. but the marshmellows were so stale that we just played baseball with them with an aluminum sword as a bat. fun!

then we all watched Cheaper by the Dozen which could have been better, but it was pretty ok. then we went home. bonfires are fun. yay!!

so today i went to church. yeah. that's pretty much it. so yeah.

man... the best weekend ever... yeah!

i want to see Hello Dolly and the Fanstastics... man...

first update in a long time...

Sat, 24 Apr 2004 01:05:35 GMT

wow. it's been a while. like... last time i updated was before spring break. holy cow!! anyway. today once again the school day was all messed up because of testing. yeah. blah. it's easy i guess. but yeah.

my brother asked leah to prome. yay!

i don't get to see matt after school anymore. and he can't call me at all until schools out. man... why don't you just put me in a coma!? ok... i hope it won't be that bad... but i miss him...

i got a shot today. my hands are cold. really cold. cursed tetnis... blah...

i want my cold sores to go away. along with whatever is on my nose... i have no clue what it is.

wowza yo...

Mon, 12 Apr 2004 03:07:28 GMT

umm... so my springbreak. i'll give it to you quick.
Friday: spent the whole day with Matt, cried when he left
Saturday: Sarah stayed the night, we started our video
Sunday: went snowboarding
Monday: went to Sarah's house and hung out at the park and spent the night there
Tuesday: built a set for Les Mis
Wednesday: put sets together had a barbaque and Sarah stayed the night
Thursday: Went to Mt St Helens and ate food and went to the tulip festivals with Sarah
Friday: craft day with Sarah
Saturday: went Snowboarding and Sarah and i finished our movie
Sunday: Easter... went to church.

so there ya go. matt comes back on tuesday... school tomorrow... ugh... so yeah.

favorites/least favorites

favorite thing to do while watching a movie: get comfortable and lay on the coach
favorite comforting noise: rain falling or Indian singing
favorite dream: to see the world
favorite comercail: i like it when they show how the vacuums work... or the water filters
favorite physical feeling: floating underwater
favorite emotional feeling: being loved
favorite music type: anything i can sing
favorite thing to do when nobody is home: I sing all the time
favorite peanut butter type: crunchy
favorite break type: cracked wheat
favorite carbohydrate: jasmin rice... yummy
least favorite chore: weeding
least favorite physical feeling: tummy aches
least favorite sound: bones cracking/snapping or painful screaming or heart beatings
least favorite sight: old lady teeth/sweaty Mr. Judd
least favorite thing people do: be annoying and do stupid stuff like kill animals and pollute
least favorite veggitable: beets... gross... and cabbage

odds and ends

most magical real thing: the northern lights
most magical fake thing: fairies
something you wish was real: time travel
something you wish was dead: racisim
something you wish you were: a mermaid
something you wish you could do: fly
something you dream about: magical fairy-lands
a hobby you have that nobody else does: i work out... and sew and draw
something you want to learn: paragliding and bungiejumping
if you could be the best at one thing what would it be?: fastest swimmer... or best singer...
any drink you could try: water from a secret waterfall
any food?: foreign stuff... like Asian
first place you'd go if you could: South America... learn to surf
something you believe in: fate... magic... talking to animals... life after death...
something sweet: matt's eyes, presents...
small habbits: eating while reading or doing work, watching movies while working...
bad habbits: biting my lip and picking my fingernails
most relieving feeling: after you relieve yourself
breathing in cold air?: it hurts... burns my lungs
surfing or skiing?: surfing... soon as i learn how
something nice you love to wear: earings and my pink skirt
something you hate doing: shaving... grrrr
someting that grosses you out: spidars and cleaning the drains
any plants?: bamboo and aloe vera

this one's for Matt...

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 06:21:41 GMT

matt... i don't want you to go... i don't want you too and if you do i want to come with you. a week and a half... all during sprink break. i didn't want you to leave and i wish that you didn't... i wish you could stay here and not go but you had to... why? because, i know... i wish there is someway to get you to come back... i would give anything. i wish it didn't have to end. becuase i love being with you. and now you're on vacation and you had to go. man... i want you here... i wish you could be here to make me feel warm and comfortable. so i could do stuff with you like swing dance and go to movies. anything... i wish... i hope that you are having fun and that you are enjoying your stay. i hope you have a fun spring break and you have a fun time in SC. after all... it's only a week and a half... i can live right? i hope you call me and that you write me too... i hope you have fun with your family. I hope you don't forget me while down there and that you come back soon. even though i know that you won't come back any sooner... but i hope that you do have a good time. i wish i didn't have to leave your house and we coulda just been like... talking more... man... i hope this finds you well. i hope, matt, i hope. please be all good. i shall be ok. it will be ok... it will. sarah and i will have fun. i hope to reseive some post cards... and i hope you will come back and be happy. i hope you call me... and i hope that i will see you again as soon as you get home. i'm sorry i cried. i sorry you had to leave with me crying. i just wanted to let you know that i am ok. and that i will be ok. and that i love you and i want you to be happy and not worry about me while on vacation. so... i love you. and i hope you enjoyed the gift... i hope that you're jacket never looses its smell. have a good time matt... i hope... and i love you...

guess this subject

Sat, 03 Apr 2004 06:03:51 GMT

all my bags are packed I'm ready to go
i'm standed here out side your door
I hate to wake you up to say goodbye.
but the dawn is braking it's early morn
the taxi's waiting he's blowing his horn
i'm ready i'm so lonely i could die...

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe... I hate to go...

there's so many times i've let you down
and so many times i've played around
I tell you know, they don't mean a thing.
every place i go i think of you
every song i sing i sing for you
when i come back i'll wear your wedding ring

so kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe... I hate to go...

now the time has come to leave you
one more time now let me kiss you
close your eyes and I'll be on my way
dream about the days to come
when I won't have to leave alone
about the times when I won't have to say:

kiss me and smile for me
tell me that you'll wait for me
hold me like you'll never let me go

cause i'm leaving on a jet plane
don't know when i'll be back again
oh babe... I hate to go...

my head hurts a little bit...

Mon, 29 Mar 2004 01:40:14 GMT

today was kewl. yesterday was kewl too. i watched Mona Lisa Smiles... which is way way WAY different but still pretty good... and matt took me out to dinner. it was really yummy and filling and the waitress was all like "are you SURE everythings ok?" kinda funny so yeah.

but i wish i coulda gone to Anglelala's partay... sad... but i'm happy with whatever... you know me.

so today i woke up at 5:45 and ate a banana and some English Muffins... all toasted too... yum. then i showered, threw my stuff in the car and dad and I headed towards the mountains. my dad brought his skis so he went up with me. in the car ride we listened to Breakfest with the Beatles. It was rockin.

got there and got all into my snow stuff. got my lift ticket and my snowboard and took a lesson (because then it is cheaper) that only lasted an hour. my teacher was a girl named Nichole and i was the only person in my class. sweet. i was really advanced too. it was really awesome. i got past the bunny hill and got to ride on a ski lift... over and over and over and over... i really got into it.

there is nothing i can't do!!!

but i was sailing down the mountain and i just went down over and over! I biffed it bad like... 3 times and i sliced my elbow open on the ski lift. I was trying to get on it my second time and i hit the bar and i was like "ow my elbow" and my dad looked at it and he was like "nah... it's ok" so at the top of the mountain when i'm straping myself into my board my dad was like "holy shit! look at your arm!!" and there was blood like... pouring out of my elbow. i cut it open pretty good.

so i just picked up some snow and put it over my elbow. it stopped the bleeding for a while and the snow was all orangish from my wound. but THAT run downt he mountain i biffed it bad trying to do a toe-side (up on your toes) and i fell forward but i was still going downhill so i did several rolls and backflips in the snow. i got up and there was a huge blood smear all down the hillside and i looked at my elbow and it was bleeding again pretty badly. i was like "whoa" and my dad was like "we should get you a bandaid" and i was like "NO! because bandaids aren't waterproof" so yeah. but i put one on on the way home. it's my battlescar... yay. from a ski lift. i'm such a clutz...

it was funny cuz i didn't even feel it at all but i was dying the snow with blood all up and down the mountain. yeah. saw some guys go off the rails and jumps and hit pretty hard... it was SO hilarious... funny... o yeah. i should go do some homework... hehehee...

Sun, 28 Mar 2004 01:11:02 GMT

so my weekend briefly...

Friday:
school was ok. easy. two tests. all good. hung out with Sarah, Bryan and Matt afterschool. YAY

Saturday:
well so far i've writen a dumb essay for Hamlet. I'm not done yet but i got the first draft done. I can edit later. Bryan randomly came over. I love it when people don't call and just all of a sudden knock on your door. it's one of my most favorite things in the world! and tonight i'm going out to dinner with Matt and his dad. he's picking me up in about an hour. can't wait!

Sunday:
my dad is going to take me up to the mountains again to go snowboarding again. I hope we get to go. because i love it.

Bryan's dad might buy the brown house that is for sale right behind ours. I hope he does because then I would be able to see Bryan a lot more often. that would rock.

man... this picture is so awesome! it like... i dunno. it just looks like it came out of Shirlock Holmes file dillyo... wow.

o and Mikey... if you ever read this, that picture of that eye you have in your journal... i think i'm scared for life. just thought i'd tell you.

haha... beware the IDIOTS of march... heeeheeee... ahhh... read Get Fuzzy if you don't understand. no... read Get Fuzzy anyway. quit wasting your life and do something. like... read Get Fuzzy!!! YAY!!! ok. i'm good. tuna out!!

man...

Fri, 26 Mar 2004 03:22:14 GMT

here is a sad story.

ok. when Becky was little she would play with her friend Wendy down the street. and there was this girl that lived on a plot of land behind Wendy's house. Her name was Snow. she had a brother named Teddy. they lived in a little trailer on a very cheap piece of land. When Becky was little she would always be nice to her. and we would play with her when she came over. except one time Wendy and Becky were doing something and they told Snow that they couldn't play that day.

but Becky always thought Snow was kinda annoying. but she was kewl most of the time. she just was annoying sometimes.

well Becky's mom worked at the elementry school that Snow and her went to. she was a recess teacher... if you could call her a teacher. she was the one that would blow the whistle when recess was over. well Becky's mom had connection in the school and she found out the deal about Snow and Teddy. and TODAY of all days she decides to tell her.

well snow and teddy basically didn't have parents. they had older people living in their house with them but they weren't ever parents. snow and teddy had to take care of themselves since like... the day they were born. there would be weeks were snow and teddy never changed clothes because the adults of the house never washed their clothes. snow and teddy would come to school some days dirty and unwashed. they didn't even have backpacks. snow just wanted to play with becky and wendy... and for the most part... becky and wendy were a littl bit mean to snow. Snow made the best of her life and she was a very cute little sweetheart that you would just want to take home with you. but becky and wendy didn't see that.

omg... i feel so bad. because i am becky... and damaris is wendy... and we were like that...

i have never felt worse in my whole life... i want to find Snow right now and just tell her how sorry i am. i can't believe i was so mean and oblivious to what was going on. i can't believe i was so awful and harsh. I want to say i was nice to her all the time... but i wasn't. i was only nice to her about 60-70% of the time i spent with her. and she was so poor and sweet and so just wanting to get by. man... i had to tell someone or else i would explode...

writing now

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 02:14:39 GMT

ok. so i'll fill this in with what's going on. So...
1st period is so dumb. like the worst. we don't learn anything. other english teachers are worried that we won't meet the ciriculum. so it's not like i'm-a-student-i-hate-school bad. it's like this-is-no-kidding bad. so yeah
2nd period we had a sub!! YAY!!! i hate the teacher...
3rd period we are cutting DNA, sending it through odger and seeing where the bands match up to see who murdered who. and a stupid vocab test...
4th period we are going in-class projects. easy. we finished ours today. it's about Qatar. fun...
5th period we had a german test... it was really hard... stupid ein eine and einen...
6th period we had another sub. yay! i played tetris on my calculator against Joe and Joel.

no school tomorrow for me because i get to go on that band dillyo. fun. i'm excited because i get to miss school... yeah...

but it's all day with my dumb band teacher... curses...

but for lunch i'll get to go to subway... hopefully! we'll be back in time for lunch but tomorrow is like... the only early out day we got. so we get a 40 min. lunch. i'm happy! i hope we get to go. and by we i mean me, matt, bryan, joe, jacob... (maybe?) and my brother.

k i'm eating dinner now... so i bid thee adieu

take me there...

Thu, 25 Mar 2004 01:56:02 GMT

kinda kewl... like how i feel... but in pictures...

Tue, 23 Mar 2004 05:20:36 GMT

ok... this isn't how i feel but i like the picture...

my day was all around ok. Les Mis is ok. school is school... yeah.

face is in pain... sunblock... good...

Mon, 22 Mar 2004 05:28:26 GMT

so i went snowboarding today. forgot sunblock. so my cheecks are all burned. well... it was really warm up there. i tried using chap-stick as sunblock. [because my chap-stick has SPF 20 in it] so i put chap-stick on my nose. so my nose is good. but my cursed high cheeck bones aren't.

so my boarding experience:

got stuff from rental shop. it was hilarious because AS SOON as I opened the door to go outside with all my boarding stuff my brother stepped on my shoelace and i fell down before i even hit the snow. how funny. i laughed and laughed and laughed and laughed. i embarrassed my brother and my dad too... YAY!

then got all suited up and drank some hot chocolate. then learned how to turn and balance and spent the rest of the day on the bunny slop. it kinda sucked because i think i could do more, but no one would come with me. i mean... if you start from the TOP of the bunny hill, it can be kinda hard. i biffed it twice going down majorly hard. like to the point were it felt like it would be less painful if my skeleton ripped out of the top of my head.

so i just kept going down like... the last 1/3 of the mountain. next time we go up my dad said i get to actually use a ski lift and go up half the mountain. i'm excited. i really got it down. stopping and all that stuff. it rocks. but there was one kid there who really made me mad. he was just a little prick. but that didn't ruin anything.

i had a lot of fun. didn't get a hold of Bryan. but that's ok. he knows. i'll talk to him tomorrow about it. he had to go to bed. so yeah.

i can't wait to go again!

katie... i don't care what you say! you did awesome you know it and you WILL make the team because you are so very AWESOME!!! love ya!

phew... i did it

Sun, 21 Mar 2004 00:32:28 GMT

i emailed someone today. someone i haven't talked to in a long long time. someone who was my best friend. someone that i miss and that i hopes will email me back. someone that i spent my whole childhood with and has made me who i am (more or less). it was hard, and it was tough. but i sucked it up and i emailed her telling her that i miss her and that i hope she'll email me back. I emailed some other friends that prolly don't remember me. but i hope they do. i hope i get emails back soon.

Eponine... dying. Marius was so stupid...

I went through my Japan photo albums today. I miss it so much. I mean... i miss EVERYTHING. i miss Keiko and my house. I miss Teriyaki McBurgers and the photobooths. I miss the cities and the hot springs and ninja grandma and the Canadian english teacher and that bowl that said "Mr. Delicious" on it at the Spanish restraurant. man... i miss Japan a lot. I still remember like... everything. man. ok.

talked to Katie today. She's going to do AWESOME!!!!!! KATIE! I LOVE YOU, YOU ROCK!!!! YOU'LL BLOW THEM AWAY WITH YOUR MAD SKILL!!!!

and tomorrow i'm going snowboarding. ok. i'm off. tuna out

the summers die one by one

Fri, 19 Mar 2004 04:20:58 GMT

ok... so my journal is updated. i feel kinda bad because lots of people post in my journal and i usually post like... once or twice in peoples journals when i get on. sad. like... Liz and Jen always post in my journal and i like... never really post in theirs. so i'm sorry. i love you guys i really do. but i hardly have anytime online and when i do i just update my journal. so i'm sorry. but yeah. that's my story and i'm sticking to it.

ok. so yesterday Monty came over and Emily, Sarah, Matt, my brother and I all got like... a sorta formal lesson in swing dancing. it was kinda kewl but i got taught a bunch of stuff i already know how to do because i already know swing dancing. but it was way way fun and hilarious watching Sarah dance. and matt it super awesome job learning how even if he doesn't think so. So i'll be able to swing with him soon. but my tummy has really bad muscle aches today. that's ok. i usually hurt after i dance all hard core and stuff.

i have a new profession i want to be. i've given up on the hopeless marine biology, pediatrician, and actress... can you guess what it is?

ok. so my school brakedown... i guess... it'll just make things easier.

1st per. watching Hamlet, hating effing the teacher
2nd per. playing music. hating effing the teacher
3rd per. doing DNA stuff. Biology is ok.
4th per. diong an in-class project on the Qatar. teachers a twit.
5th per. had a german quiz today. learning a lot
6th per. in class pre-cal project. building a bridge. yeah.

that's all. ok. toodles.

this subject, mind you, is optional

Fri, 12 Mar 2004 03:46:18 GMT

omg... i'm in a really goofy mood. this is when i have my best ideas. because this is when my kooky, crazy, and somewhat freaky sence of humor comes out. as demonstrated by the comic in which i just drew that is kooky, crazy and somewhat freaky. but i like it. i'll add onto when i'm done typing for i am typing right now. with my hands... yes... this is my random time and my time to random in which i am random for that is what i am at this time. furthermore and lastly this is the time in which because it is this time, i am in reaction to it acting in a spontanious and yet comical motion.

so. man it would suck to not have arms. could you imagion not having arms? you'd be armless. you couldn't hit anyone. unless you found a trampoline, placed it next to where they are, did a flying leap off of it onto them and bashes them into the ground with your head. but that would have to be a pretty big trampoline. however, assuming it was a pretty big trampoline, how would an armless man get onto it? this i ponder... i guess it's safe to say that an armless man could really hit anyone.

he could kick someone tho. with is feet. but if he kicked to high and fell over, the shin-bruised person in which the armless man was just kicking would have the last laugh the last meal and would prolly be the last thing the armless man ever saw.

this is my tragic tail of the armless man.

so what did i do on this day? not my chores, that's what. ew. i hated it when you get a really spicy taste in your mouth. it's is so gross. yay for Listerine. but i'm alsmost out. crizap!

if you were armless and you were a stick figure, you'd look like a giraffe person. if i was armless i'd want my name to be Jeffery. then i could run around Toys 'r' us because i'd be the giraffe and i'd prolly get free stuff because the government is so stupid.

my back iches so i'm scratching it on the back of the chair that i'm sitting in. i love modern technology.

at least when i go like this [bobbing motions occur] it's because of Hobbit's because its so bouncy.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

YOUR MOM!!! YOUR MOM'S FACE!!!!! you mother was cheap hamster and your father smells of the sewer!! heheee... [i called your mom a whore and your dad smelly...]

boom chicka boom chicka chicka... BOOM! AHHH!!! NOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooo.... death... sing you motha... i'm dead i can't. you must or else! nononono!! yesnoyes!! stupid resume. orange highlighter. homestar is sucha moron. whatta morrrroooon... tennish. or... tenniS!

YOU! THERE!! HOW NOW, WHAT HO!! when i sing low it sounds like i'm garggling jello.

ok... so like the only thing "serious" in this whole entry is like... this yo.

on my own, pretending he's beside me.
All alone, I walk with him 'till morning.
Without him, I feel his arms around me,
And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me.

In the rain, the pavement shines like silver.
All the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness the trees are full of star light
and all I see his him and me forever and forever.

I don't feel any pain
a little fall of rain
can hardly hurt me now
i'm here
that's all I need to know
and you will keep me safe,
and you will keep me close,
and rain will make the flowers...
[he kisses her forehead as she dies]
grow

yay

Tue, 09 Mar 2004 02:10:08 GMT

tolo rocked. it was awesome being there with Matt... and i think he finally is comfortable with me in public. because he was really like... showing how much he cared with other people around for the first time since we've been together. it was very awesome. i felt loved. i still do.

math is rockin now. i understand everything and i'm doing friggin awesome. my teacher is really being nice to me now that my grade is up too. and so is Joel. he's being a lot nicer to me now that i'm not always asking him for help. i like understanding my math. and i was able to get all my homework done in class, along with the lesson i missed on Thursday [due to the CWU thing] because that was easy as well. i love vectors.

...sheesh... good luck Matt... just... good luck [again, I say to you.] and i send you a text message thing. i got bored in Les Mis, and i wasn't sure if you could even receive text messages... but i still send you one.

my fingernails are white with black stripes... how awesome is that? i'm going through a black and white phase right now. i hope it never ends because i really like it. so yeah.

i got pics. for tolo and i'll be putting them on my computer as soon as i get them in. so you peoples have no worries yo.

i hope Sarah and i go swimming tonight... that'd rock.

this is pretty awesome... but would be better in black and white.

but yeah. i'll put it in black and white and make it an icon or something.

i have Matt's shirt on!! yay for that. that's two of his shirts I now have. i like the sweater-ish shirt i have of his because i sleep in it. but the one i have on now smells like him. which is also very nice.

doing a report on achondroplasia [dwarfish people commonly called "midgets"] in Biology. it's awesome. i like the topic. scary genetic condition because it's the dominant allele. scary... rare... but scary...

nothing much else is going on. finished my german homework in class. no english homework because we're reading Hamlet... which i've already read... no band, duh, but i do got another effing band test on Friday. STUPID FLUTES NOT BEING ABLE TO PLAY THEIR PART!!! Global studies quiz tomorrow. and yeah. easy peasy stuff.

our family is hosting a foren exchange student next year. her name is Karla and she's from Germany but was born in Finland. [she moved to Germany when she was like... 5 but is natively Finish] so she's like... both. how fun. she knows like... 4 different languages and she'll be staying in our extra room right next to mine for the 2004-2005 school year. awesome!! i'm all excited. so yeah. that's all really. tuna-out

((oheartO)))

hura...

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 22:00:07 GMT

today is the day for tolo. the day for tolo is today and finally tolo is today!! i'm excited! yayaya!!!

so my day... broken down.

7:00-woke up because of a really weird dream. then fell back asleep.

8:30(ish)- woke up again because my arm lost circulation

9:25- mom woke up for tennis, so i got up and ate an English Muffin

10:15- tennis lesson [only hit the coach 3 times today]

11:20- tennis over, went to Wal-Mart, then Jack in the Box... yumm...

12:00- got home... took a bath...

2:00- went online... yay only 2 hours and Sarah will be here... hoot hoot!!

had to babysit yesterday... didn't get home until 1:30... so i hope i don't wear out during the dance tonight. i'll get pictures for you guys all yeah. so no worries!!

yay to all that is holy and the powers that be!

Sat, 06 Mar 2004 02:05:53 GMT

he.

he can.

he can come.

he can come to.

he can come to tolo.

he can come to tolo.

he can come to tolo.

he can come to tolo.

HE CAN COME TO TOLO!!!

my socks are red.

Thu, 04 Mar 2004 02:59:11 GMT

matt... check your email. i've send you like... 2. please... get better... for the love of God... please get better...

Les Mis is good... but sarah and i got in trouble for "over doing it" at the Inkeepers Song. how dumb i think. but whatever.

band thing tomorrow. thank goodness for missing school.

stupid people who blame others for what is their fault. prolly my biggest peave...

updated

Tue, 02 Mar 2004 03:18:02 GMT

you know that sinking feeling you get when you feel like you do so much and theres no stopping you and you just keep going on and on without end but you want it to end so badly because how it's going is just terrible so you try harder to hope that it'll speed the system up but it doesn't so you just fall and give up and then it gets worse and you feel trapped like you need a vacation and everything is getting you down and you don't know what to believe anymore and all you want is one small thing or someone to do one small thing for you and they don't but that's all you want and you want it so bad that you push and push and push for it but you secrectly know in the pit of your stomache it'll never happen because it's to outragious but you're stubborn and have hope that it will even though in reality it won't so everything starts to bother you like when people piss off in the halls and walk slow and act like stupid poo heads and you want to take their lives so badly but you know its wrong but then you start to think about it and it might not be wrong because you don't know what to believe and your whole world is flipped upsidedown so you don't know what's wrong and what's right or what you should be doing and your whole image is slowly crumbling away like your chapped lips are slowly cracking and bleeding while your skin scrapes off your hands along the sides of walls and you only can think of one thing and that is to just be happy for one moment while the school week is going on but the people you love most are getting into trouble and you never know if you'll see them again and you wonder how come they won't be better and stop getting into mischieve so you don't know who to call because you wanna call him or her [for that matter] but you're not sure if they'll listen or even if they'll care so you result to writing run on sentences on the internet while your family is away not caring as well and your tired and sick of school and in dire need of a break away from your life and to just step into someone else's shoes for a few days but you can't you're stuck talking to people online and not doing homework and getting calls from people you don't wanna talk to but that feeling will never leave until you get what you want which in most cases is summer to come quicker because your sick of school and life and trying and you want to rest and sleep and sleep with the person you love [but not in that dirty way] and be with the people you love and then you got to worry about cancer and people eating your dog because the world is so twisted and you know that i'd be better on the "other side" if you believe in the whole life-after-death thing but you're to scared to do that not that I would but you know it'd be better and slowly you are falling further away from those who care about you and becomming so aloof nobody knows who you are anymore tho they claim to still love you and you've believed that they've loved you for a while but now your just not sure anymore so you take all that emotion in your system and try to find ONE word to describe how you feel but you can't find ONE word to describe how you feel except for the word "undescribable" but you are so stunned that you can't find a "real" word to describe it that you don't even think of that word and you still wonder if the person who says loves you REALLY loves you or just likes the fact of THINKING that he or she [for that matter] loves you so you sit hoping he or she [for that matter] will call so you can do something or something will happen which you can talk about it but you get to scared to bring it up but you despretly want the matter to be addressed but it doesn't so you get irratable and yell at cats crack your lips so they continue bleeding and paint your fingernails and plot your world domination while slowly slipping behind in school because those few things which are bothing you bother you so much that you can't work until it's done and over with which it wont be for a while so you need to quit wollowing about your sorry ass because worse things all over the world are going on and you're just being a selfish little pussy who needs to stop being one because others are prolly getting annoyed by you typing so much but then again they're the ones who read it so maybe it's all really their fault that you are like this but you know it's not and you have no one to blame but yourself because altimitly you are in charge of your life and while you're reading this you do some self discovery and relieze how bad the litter box of life smells but all you gotta do is get off your comfortable arm chair grab a plastic bad and clean it out and then you think about how awesome of an analogy that was and how much you gotta go to the bathroom and how much you need to get some Carmex on your lips because the cracks are bleeding down your neck then your mind will go off on other subjects that don't really matter but you still got that feeling but you do feel a little bit better that you said all this so now it's all done and over with then you remember that people comment on these livejournal things and you think wow i don't really want anyone commenting on this one so you say "you people reading this livejournal entry don't bother commenting because i don't want you too" but you know that one annoying prick is going to comment anyway so it is a loss cause but then you remember that in Gone with the Wind the main guy fights for a loss cause and he knows it so you try anyway and you finally realieze that this entry is WAY to long and if anyone has gotten this far into reading then they better not give you crap because they just read this one sentence that keeps going on and on and mind you you know you could go on forever and write a novel on how you feel but you won't because it's just not worth it but you really want someone to bring you flowers totally annonymusly cuz that'd be so awesome but you really should go because suddenly lightning stricks your brain and you know that you can blame this all one school so you will and that is what you will do and then you'll be off because you got all that off your chest?

yeah me too.